i think it's time i want to dance.

i cant wait for the day where i have found again that i know who i am and where it is i certainly belong. it's one thing to hear it said, but quite another to know it yourself, to believe it in the entirety of your deepest part. i found it once, well, i thought i did. maybe it was a small snippet of what was to come. a simple taste to see what i could know, what i could see everyday if i pursue it. but somewhere, i find the little voice saying, "but i want to be pursued." the truth is, i want to be whisked away on a whim because my beauty is enough. to be lovely just because its a thursday afternoon and to be captivating through a fit of laughter, that as my cheeks turn rosey with embarassment and my teeth automatically bite my lip to hide it so, that even then i am the cutest thing around.
what a feeling that would be, to be, simply to be. to be desired as a beautiful broken spirit willing to spread her wings and fly on the winds of joy. its funny how you realize looking to another, to give this kind of clairty and fulfillment will never do, that it will forever be eternally set for only one lover. and on that lover's beck and call you wait furvently wondering if in fact He heard your knock or saw your twirl. you wonder if in fact He will answer you, and promise with all the love in His eyes, He will never leave you, that such a jewel is far to precious to ever been replaced by another. He'll whisper softly as you dance along in rhytem that He's never met a one like you, that you captivate, you inspire, you are breathtaking, you are His absolute favorite one of you. as He sweeps you gently, gliding along the dance floor as onlookers hold their breath to see that He is focused on you alone, and showers you with eyes that sing of the most beautiful thing that could have ever been designed. yes, that is what i desire, that is what i hope for each morning as i awake and pray the sun will hold tightly against my skin and the breeze will coil gently in my hair, tangling the strands and they dance with delight. to be all beautiful, flawless in every form of the word and to know it within my depths. to be loved by a King who is enthralled with my beauty above any other.
yes, now i think it's time,

i want to dance.